heh.

i think i am crazy.

heh.

i guess i am back.

cheers.

heh. i just realised that i have missing post. i lost one post before today's post. but well, i guess that was not important anyway. it should be something posted on christmas wishing eveyone a merry christmas.

=)

heh.
while i am feeling high now, i should blog.

eheh.. if i am not wrong, it had been raining for 24 hours straight already right? haven't seen it stop. ehm, maybe it stopped during my long sleep, but had it?

k, i wasted whole lot of time at home today watching anime, and trying to knit. i didn't really succeed, i got bored of knitting after 2 rows of knits. then i roll around my house, and finally decided to watch the anime that had been in my com for quite sometime now. "Samurai Deeper Kyo" haha.. it's quite stupid i tot, but well, it kept me occupied. =)

heh. and then i realised that i had wasted whole lot of time at home today. due to the rain, i became super duper lazy to go out. if i have a driving license, and a car, it will be a different case. DAMN i dun have both.

ok, i actually planned to have this day, which is the only day i can stay at home, to do up my assignments. however, i wasted this day. too bad. so, i gonna go back to school to do something more useful tml! and after that i can go hang/wonder around Singapore.

Oh, my parents are going on a holiday for like 3 days. and for these 3 days, i would be free! haha. so evil. i gonna be bad, i gonna be naughty. haha.. i gonna stay out like no body's business. till late, till early, whatever. =P ok, but would i really do that? doubt so. wahaha.. so contradicting. ok, i am just trying to be defiant.

ok, i am not gonna go cable ski anymore, due to the rain. actually it's a good thing. haha. then i can spend the money on other things. like driving lessons. and maybe eat more. i realised my weight haven't been constant. it goes up and down and up and down. sometimes it is 46 before meals sometimes it become 44 after meals. looks like even my weight reflects my emotions. being happy for a moment and sad for another. such inconsistency, not good, not good.

eh ok.

oh did i say? i cut my hair again. and most probably gonna cut again next Monday. =P i got so sick of my hair. haha. you might see me without hair one day. but not soon. i still like to have some hair for the moment. wahaha. sounds kinky.

eh.. ok..

i just washed my pencil case! shit! means tml i go to sch without pencil case? man... haha.. my pencil case is like so important to me that i cannot go sch without it. in this weather, it won't dry by tml. ha, shit.

i gonna be happy happy happy. i guess i still gonna contain my tears within me for now. =D i shall stay happy until, until i die? heh. maybe until the day that i finally break down. and then after that i gonna stay happy again. it's like reborn. heh. not a nice thing to talk about. ok. i am confident that i gonna make it. =) smile. haha. no worries! i am superwoman. i am so proud of myself. =P

ok. yea.
awesome yea.
lol.

*something to ask myself: really?

MOS was fun, much more fun than the first time i went there. at least this time, it isn't as disappointing. this time, there were more people, so more fun. haha. i enjoyed myself. my mom didn't nag at me. i reached home at 4.30am, but my mom didn't nag at all. which was a surprise. she didn't even call me or sms me the whole time i was out. which was another surprise.

so, i really enjoyed myself.
thanks to all those who went.
nice clubbing with you guys.
cheers.

I suddenly feel like observing people in a cafe behind a huge glass wall. That could relax me for a while. But, where to find the time?

~~

=)

This week of school is hell. 5 things due in one week, which 3 of them dued today, is no joke. School is over for today, and I am so so relieve that it is over. However, the next level of hell is coming - The Holiday. 2 weeks of holiday is really too short for us FSV students (Not trying to show off) We got so many things to squeeze into these 14 days. Minus away the church going days and my cable ski trip. Also, my Saturdays are burned for sailing. Most importantly, Christmas day. That is left with 9 days. In such a short period, I have 3 projects going on, 1 report due, 2 projects due, and 2 driving lessons. Further more, I was called back to work. I must really be super woman. I tried my best to leave a proper rest day after my cable ski trip, but I need to sacrifice it. I was stunned when I open my organiser realising that I have to squeeze in 2 things or more in a day. It's difficult for me trying to find a nice full day to go location scouting and to do audition.

I am so tired now. My brain is cracking, I cannot think. My shoulders feel like they are going to break anytime. I might just collapse anytime. I wished for a rest day but my wish doesn't seem to be coming true. Maybe Christmas is the only hope for rest.

Come to think of it, maybe after all these I will get my pay back. The bitterness comes before the sweetness maybe. When all the others are busy doing last minute work, we are finishing off. Doing early means we get to go to the holiday earlier. Like what I have been saying since the start of this semester, the holiday is coming! It's 8 more weeks from now.

I had survived these 9 week enjoying being busy, occasionally slacking, and occasionally playing. As a result, I worn myself out. I got more tired each week, accumulated until now, i ought to collapse. I starts to gets frustrated and unreasonable for absolutely no reason (my stress syndromes in yr 1).

I haven't have the time to go for any driving lessons for 2 weeks already. I haven't have the time to watch Animes and Goong. Not to say going out and socialising. No entertainment, no life.

I shall replenish my energy now. I should eat my dinner. Adios.

The Isolated laugh.
Haha. Ha.

Labels: Tired like shit.

Some words from some email.

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.
I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appearbigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

Nice.

Argh! This blogger beta really sucks. I am tricked into using this service, so dumb.

All I want to say is: I am ultra busy, but I enjoy being busy. =)
The holiday is coming soon, I don't know how to survive. =(

乐在其中

you know me too much when i don't even know you.
am i so easy?

blogger beta sucks can.