my blog always so boring hor.. no pictures one.. heh.. shall go and dig out photos one day and post them all up.. =P then again, i don't really have a lot of photos.. oh well.. i don't have the time to do so anyway.. well don't really know what i am so busy doing when i got nothing to do here.. oh.. i know alr.. i only get to use my laptop at home after work.. tat's y.. den sometimes go out till too late alr nv on my laptop.. sould bring my laptop to work sometime this week.. =D heh.. good idea.. den i can use the FCP here to do something to my post work.. =P

oh well, post 2 entrys at one go.. a bit stupid.. well.. dun care!
=P

i don't want to blog in my office! i tried to refrain myself from doing so!
but, i am too bored!
=P

oh well.. nothing much to say.. my "oi" went for reservice and i can't see him till friday.. =(
i haven got nothing to do at work and i am damn bored.
i am having 3 driving lessons every week till the week of july 13.
i am keeping myself busy this week until "oi" comes back. and then we gonna go spend the weekend together! =P

one and a half month left till attachment is over. i think i will miss this place, i will miss the people here. after i am gone, there won't be any trace of my left behind i guess. they will be back to their normal working situation before i was here. the prompter girl will be replaced with another intern from SMU i guess. this studio control that i am in will be empty on normal days until the next intern from NP comes. or might there be no more interns from NP, this computer will only be used once per week on studio days. sounded so sad but i am actually looking forward to the end of attachment. i want my one and a half month vacation and i want to go back to school and get back into my busy life. i hope i can get the drive of momentum when i get back. i hope i can organise my time well so i can committe for both my CCA and my school work. it will be the last semester for me in NP and it will be a killer one with our only examination. i would have to take full charge of my CCA as the president will be out this time for attachment. i think i still can't handle a club. but maybe i will learn when time comes. and i think i will do it good. or at least i hope so. so sentimental the whole chunk of text here. llike writing essay. the more words i write, the harder it is to read. so i think i should write more so that people becomes lazy to read.

i found the scallop thing that i had been looking for and it is freaking expensive! $38 after a $2 discount. it was quite a big packet thou. maybe i can share with sam.. =P

van's concert is quite cool. at least i didnt fall asleep. i just don't understand the price difference thingy. different price but sit around the same place. maybe it's the sound thing. our sits have best sound i guess. oh well, over alr. nice ending with the encore song.

eh ok.. i gonna be random again. too bored here.

i hope the moment last forever.

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i really enjoied myself yesterday at the BBQ. i enjoied the crowd and i enjoy being myself. heh.. so nice.. oh, but we totally forgotten about the games that we are suppose to play.. =p

i felt that i had lost myself for sometime.. but then again, i didnt really lost myself.. oh well, nvm that now that i am back to normal.. i hope things will be even better now.. cheers to everyone..

i cherish you, really.
have faith.
=)

ABCDEFG~ let's continue to sing the song of ABC~

don't suspect yourself, it's just that you tried too hard..
nevertheless you tried, and people will appreciate..
smile.. =)

hmm.. Do I have a $100 note stuck to my head? Or maybe a $100 note sticking out from my pocket? No! That's why I don't understand why people stop me on the street asking me to spare them some money for lunch when I am not even eating lunch. =/ Maybe i look nice and all maybe i look naive. but i am not. look at yourself, you are healthy and all. why not go look for a decent job and get your own lunch instead of asking a young lady who is still schooling for lunch money. don't come thinking that Singaporeans are all kind and all. useless dumb!

some people just don't appreciate. well, can't blame people for not looking forward to when i also don't. but i hate it when people don't appreciate others effort. oh well, i shall learn how not to appreciate although i know it's bad. i want to let those people to know how it feels like when people don't appreciate it when you made an effort to make it happen. i am evily revengeful.

when the blog sleeps, it sleeps for a long long time.
when it wakes up, it's goes on and on.

hmm.. after reading through my previous post, i feel like i am talking crap. and it's really crappy.
I am trying to put myself in this "wise" shoes but I am so not in the position to be "wise". why the quote? cuz i don't think that my previous post is even "wise" and i don't even think that i am in the position to use the word "wise".
i always thought that i am but now i realised that i am not. i wish i really am, i wish i am in the position to use that word.

i am mad at myself for trying to be when i am not actually.

CRAP!

heh.. had been long blog! long live blogging!

kinda high now but kinda low at the same time.. so contradicting..

i don't know what to say.. i am having fun in my life, like always..
hmm, i want to blog properly today!
starts next paragraph..

Life had been fulfilling so far and it will continue to be, I hope.
I have nice people around me and it will continue to be, I wish.
I have nice family and nice friends and I know they will continue to be.
I have a nice boy by my side and I wish we will continue to be.
=)

I am quite down now. I am feeling affected.
How I hope everyone can live their life to the fullest and how I hope people can be nice and happy and cheerful and all. But it's like quite impossible. How I wish i could help. If only I could help in whatever way.
I feel so unfair sometimes. Not me that I felt unfair for, but people around me. It's like I got a gift from someone but not the rest. I felt so unfair from them that I am willing to give away my gift to them and share what I've got. But some things just can't be shared.
Feeling so helpless. I want to help but I can't do much. Maybe is the initiative thing that I am lack of. Well, people can't be perfect.
Thinking of that, I got over my affection I guess. "People just can't be perfect" maybe that's the problem here. I am not perfect, I know perfectly well. Perfect or not, it doesn't really matter. But then again, who doesn't want to be perfect. Contradicting crap.
I need some serious talking to now when i am in the "thinking mode". I know who to go to but by tomorrow, I will forget everything I guess. I always tell myself, "it will only affect me for 10 minutes" but sometimes it gets longer than that. When it does, it goes a long way.

By now, I myself don't know what I am writing about. I doubt people reading will. Well, it's ok. I don't meant it for people to understand anyway. I treat this as a way to relieve my emotion.

And I admit, I am contradicting crap trying to think both sides and the center.

Oh well, go get some sleep and will wake up tomorrow a better day.
a smile for myself and everyone around.
=)

I don't feel like clicking on the publish post button, this post is so not me.
oh well, cheers for tml!