if i were blue, the world will be purple.

*random*

I went to East Coast Park to skate this evening, it was all about memories.

I was there quite alone when skated pass all those places I went to before and all the routes I skated before. So much memories I had left there. So many things I did and forgotten. How nice it is to remember all of them, but kinda of sad as well.
Happy and glad as I know I had enjoyed myself. Sad because all of them are the past now, not forgetting the one bad memory I have had there.

I really had a wonderful 3 years in NP that I will never forget. That includes knowing a huge bunch of nice people, whom I still keep in contact with. Cheers to all of them. And of cause another huge bunch of nice people whom I lost contact with. It's a regret, really. I do hope that one day we will come together again to do the things we enjoyed.

I got to know my best pals in Poly, did the things that I like (not like old school boring lessons), and experienced something new. I did not regret getting into FSV, really. It was one best choice ever made to withdraw from NYP to get into FSV. If I did not change my path, I will not know my girlfriend, my best friend, my boyfriend (the best ever), my sailing mates (gamblers), my YEP people (cool batch), my course mates (movie fanatics), my leadership camp people (lost contact), and a lot a lot others.

How I wish I could stay on and never to graduate. How I wish I could be like Peter Pan who never grow up. How I wish my life will never move on. But I have to. It's sad. Even if I never grow up, all my friends will anyway. So I rather grow up with them then to be left behind.

It became a bit emotional to know that all those good times is in the past. I can't skate with my only skate mate anymore since she is in London now. I can't go sailing anymore since I have already graduated. I seldom meet up with my YEP people anymore since everyone is doing their own stuff now. How I wish those times will come back, how I wish we will gather and do the things we did before again. Yes, I am repeating myself. I can't help it. I just wish to go back so bad.

Oh well, I should move on and don't live in the past. Maybe I will meet more and better people in the near future. Maybe I won't be here anymore in the near future. Maybe Singapore will become a past to me in the near future. There are so much uncertainties. Now, I look forward to the future but still do not want to leave my past behind. After all, I have had so much nice memories in the past.

Now, I wish to go back to Vietnam to walk down my memory lane there as well. I am afraid I will forget my memories there if I don't visit often. I do not want to forget anything there, it was one of the best times of my life.

Why do people have to change? Why do memories fade? Why do time pass? I guess I have my answer. It's life.

Since I am going to live this life, why not live it good. Hell I am leaving it good. As good as I can live. Well, not really. But good enough. One shouldn't be greedy and be contented with what one have. Yes, I agree totally. But it's hard to do. So hard. When you look at people and see what they had done with their life and you envious them and you cannot do anything about your life the way they did. That felt bad, really bad.

Why am I writing this? I don't know. I just felt like writing. It's just a splice of life to go though all this. Everyone goes through all this right? Or am I abnormal. I guess not.

Life is about changes and changes. People change to fit into their surroundings. Our Fore fathers change to be better. Our country changes to provide better place to stay. Our world changes to become more advance.

Maybe, just maybe, everything will stop. Maybe we are changing too much and too fast, maybe we are advancing too much and too fast, maybe the world should just reset. I believe that. That's why I believe the world should end and take sometime to recover from whatever damage human had done to it, and restart. The same old thing will happen I believe. And the world will have to reset again. Maybe the things that happened to me this lifetime will happen to me again next lifetime after the world reset. Oh, maybe there wasn't god at all. It's all the work of nature that we are here. Anyway, human created gods. Not that I don't believe, it's just mystical. Pardon my imaginations.

I had written so much! I wish you did not read all these nonsense. But I guess it's too late to tell you since you are reading this already. Oh well, like I said, I just felt like writing. I was a bit emotional ya and writing cures my emo-ness. Now I felt better. Better.

Now, I shall just move on with my life. I am looking at my future. I am looking at my aims and goals. I hope everything will be well for me, and for you.

Thanks for everything to everyone.
Cheers. :)